The place of my dreams

I am not quite sure how old I was when I saw The Secret Garden (nor have I read the book) but it is definitely one of my favorite movies as a child... and still as an adult.

In the depths of my imagination and my longing to get away from everything I always end up in this magical bloomed yet very dark garden. The image of Ophelia comes to my mind when I write this, it is a place where I am both happy to be in and scared and melancholy at the same time. Like a place where you go when you are scared to try to cheer up but you end up in there with all your fears... I know this might sound a little bit weird, however I am fascinated by it, since I can remember this is a place where I zone out, where I hide from being myself on the day by day world. I still remember how many times I hid underneath my bed when I was angry or upset, my family used to tease me so much, but I don't care they have never been to this place and therefor cannot understand me.

Sprout and the Bean - Joanna Newsom ♫

Source WHI

An S for a J

One of my favorite books of all time is definitely Little Woman by Luisa M. Alcott, I read it when I was so young and when I watch the movie back then I felt in love with it even more.
I was visiting my mother for the weekend and suddenly I turned on the T.V. and there it was (I don't watch T.V. ever because I don't have cable at my house) and I was just so happy and captivated with the movie that I had to stop doing what I was doing and I sat down and me and my mother watch it remembering the soft and realistic romances we read when we were little. It had me thinking after it ended of how this book could have possibly shaped me as the person I am today... I didn't even remember it existed, by that I mean that there are other movies and books I remember almost everyday (even movies that probably came out because of this book, think of the Virgin Suicides) but now that I am aware and I think of it, I really feel that this book might have shaped the way I see love, the way I think a woman should be.
I was always a fan of Jo March, I too felt that I didn't fit anywhere and now I am a grown "independent" woman I wonder how much of that heroin must have been sleeping with in me without me even knowing. We try so hard us women, we don't want to be the silent obedient little Amy, we fight we struggle we want to be our own heroin, but in the end it is so hard being strong, what are we fighting against? Do we even know? I can say that it couldn't have been a better time for me to remember the little woman inside me and now I wonder if what I long for in love and life is even realistic or just a fairytale I read when I was a girl.
Source here, here and here

The hours in between

“I believe if there’s any kind of God it wouldn’t be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there’s any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone, sharing something. I know, it’s almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt.”

 [Come Here-Kath Bloom]

“I always feel this pressure of being a strong and independent icon of womanhood, and without making it look my whole life is revolving around some guy. But loving someone, and being loved means so much to me. We always make fun of it and stuff… But isn’t everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more?”

 [Celine's Waltz]

I love her apartment

The poem written by the bum on the river

What if I tell you that I never forgot you, that I still love you and even though the time we spent together was little it was the most amazing thing that happened in my life. I make a wish to never forget your smile and your kiss and maybe just maybe I will see you, in another life perhaps.

Sources here and here

Girls' night in

[Never Let Me Go]

[Blue Valentine]

[Somewhere]

[Breakfast at Tiffany's]

[A Single Man]

1,2,3,4,5

These are some of the movies I wanna watch on a movie night with my girlfriends.

I wish that I could have a night like this pretty soon... having some ice cream and popcorn maybe a little wine too. And if there isn't much company I can always watch them myself (this doesn't mean I am leaving the wine out of the question) as the kiddo on A Single Man says I feel alone most of the time.

Sweet tunes [Soko - I will never love you more]