I just wanted to mark this date.
I can't say I am a new person, I am still good ol' me, but I do feel a little like Nina Sayers only not dead but happily alive. And it is also not the end but the beginning, the beginning of me as it always should have been.
Also yesterday I received an indian friendship bracelet from my very good good friend Ryan, he sent it inside a letter from INDIA!... all of this in a short amount of hours... I can't really express how happy I am. I am truly smiling with my heart now, nothing really matters now because what makes me happy what makes the world spin around comes from within me, I am finally at peace.
This picture is my favorite painting: Picasso's The girl before the mirror I got the chance to admire it at the MoMA in NYC last october, it has always meant a lot to me but now it means the world... the way I feel sums up in the masterpiece of an amazing painter from another time. How cool is that? to see your feelings turn into figures in a beautiful painting?
I am certain now I will be all I can be, nothing is gonna stop me now because the only person in between my dreams and happiness is now dead for me...